...through Christ which strengthens me.
Jon will be leaving this Saturday for his one month buisness trip to Europe. The schedule was changing from one week to the next so we never were positive exactly how long he would be gone until 2 weeks ago. That is an awfully long time for Jon to be away from us and the most he will have been away since we've been married. I've been dreading it, trying not to think about it but it approaches fast and reality is setting in. One might feel that one month isn't bad, then another might think the complete opposite and think it's not so great and how will I survive? Here are my thoughts...
#1: It's more sad that he is leaving NOW than had he left 6+ months ago. We are doing amazingly well, better than we have ever done in our 6 years of marriage because I am better--we BOTH are. Like I said in a previous post, I am so much more calm, patient, loving, less moody, and quicker to turn around after getting upset. We are enjoying one another's company and just wanting to be together over all. Don't get me wrong, we have good times but unless one has endured hypothyroidism or Hosimoto's, you'll never understand just how much it alters a person. It astounds me how much the thyroid controls our body and mind. It's ridiculous that only one chapter in med school (or so I have been told) covers the thyroid and it's fuctioning. Why, when something is SO crucial to our existance, is there only one chapter on it? It is the cause for so many other diagnosis that goes untreated for the simple, irresponsible fact, that it is not studied enough in med school. I know a few people right now that is suffering becuase it went unnoticed, untreated, or improperly treated. This is coming from a patience point of view, one who, thankfully, hasn't had to suffer much due to a good friend. I could go on and on about this, but I'll jump off my soap box for now.
#2: There is a lack of rescources in communicating with Jon. Considering the time difference, it's hard to get in touch with one another. Yes, we have email but that can be slow as it takes a bit of time for him to connect to the computer. I have to wait quite a while before knowing that he safely landed.
#3: The children. I will try to keep them busy, especially Keilana, so that this month passes by quickly.
#4: Fall is around the corner and with that come traditional festivities that we attend every year. Thankfully, he IS flying out in September and will be here for October, which, is when MOST of our fun begins. Nonetheless, there will be a few family outings he will miss out on.
I've been having a hard time sleeping the past few nights, thinking of him being gone. I didn't go to sleep until 4:00 am last night--I cleaned and did laundry for 5 hours until I finally felt like I could settle and sleep.
I'm thankful he has the job he does and that it is very stable and supports our needs. I will lean on my friends and family while he is away, but most importantly, lean on the Lord and trust that he will keep Jon safe.
7 comments:
That really sucks, Nessa. I know how you kind of feel....Josh has been working every single night since the beginning of the month and I sleep all alone at night and get soo bored during the day while he sleeps. Hope all is well in your home! Love ya and give kisses to the kiddies!
I know how you have been dreading this :( But you summed it up in your post. You've got great friends, and as your family, we will be there for you. We will have to plan some fun things to do. You know how time flys when you're having fun. We'll keep your family in our prayers and pray for everyone's safe reunion. This, too shall pass. LOVE you all! Mama
I don't envy you, Nessa... but you ARE doing MUCH better this go 'round and you can call me ANY TIME! Let's play!
You would think that after a few deployments I would get used to Cliff leaving but I'm not sure that you ever really do. My best advice is to stay busy busy busy AND be sure to reward yourself here and there. Go on a shopping trip with your friends or watch and chick flick with a BIG bowl of ice cream. Cliff and I are really only able to communicate through e-mail when he is gone as the phone lines from the ship are temperamental at best, BUT we do write hand written letters to each other and I have to say that "snail mail" is so much fun to get! I don't know if that is an option for you, but it might be fun to try. Also, be sure to ask for help. I only have one child at home but my mother ended up coming back out to help me because Lilia is colicky and I struggle with some depression. I just couldn't do it all on my own. There is no shame in asking for help. Don't try to be a super mom. Good luck girl! You will be in my prayers. You can do this.
... Sorry to write a novel...
if you both have microphones, you can skype. it's even better if there are video cameras. that's how we stay in touch with family
Vanessa, you can call me anytime. We miss the kids and you an Jon. Will be praying for his safety and your happiness and safety as well. Love Mom/Dad Quan
I finally learned how to leave a comment. Will do so as often as I can. Those pictures were so good. Mom and Dad Quan
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